I have a poem for you all today about something I’ve been struggling with on an astronomical level. It’s something that’s been hounding me since I first started on this journey when I was 16 or 17. Take a read.
Take it, they say, and I do.
It’s for the better, they say, and I pretend
to believe them.
But there’s no better medicine than human connection,
than walks in nature
where the fireflies conjure
and the Cougars roar.
There’s no better medicine than a domestic cat’s purr,
than a puppy’s head rub,
or the bloom of a rose.
But take it, they said, and I do,
for I understand the consequences of moods
that are self destructive,
that cause more pain than happiness,
that force me to believe
everyone is against me,
even as the evidence proves otherwise.
Two little pills will not dictate my life
but they hound my moral conscience mercilessly:
“You’re feeding the demon, Big Pharma,
going against what you believe in,
what Karma
will that produce at the end of your life span
here on Earth?
You’re hurting your liver, your kidneys, your organs.
How will your heart feel after 21 years of torture
by two little pills?
Don’t you remember Prolonged QT,
or have you forgotten you’re getting a science degree?
It can cause a fatal Arrhythmia after prolonged use of anti-psychotics
and who knows this but you?
A psychiatrist won’t tell you,
a physician won’t tell you
and yet you take those two little pills
against your very own will.
This is all the voice in my head
the one that used to constantly want me dead.
Now he begs for me to save my life
by throwing away those two little pills
that cause me so much moral strife.
Check out this poem and more on my Booksie account here.
I hope you are feeling ok. Thank you for sharing. Remember, you are awesome and don’t forget to smile cause you matter.
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Thank you. I’m doing alright. I just had some things I needed to get off my chest. Thank you for your kind words. 🙂
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My absolute pleasure. Stay awesome and continue sharing.
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Hope you are ok. I have just come off one of my long term antipsychotics and understand the effect it has.
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I’m doing alright, just some stuff I had to get off my chest. I go back and forth with my meds so this is nothing new for me. Glad to hear you were able to successfully come off of one however! Thank you for reading and commenting.
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I came off it myself even against psychiatrists orders. It has been well so far. I am on another but not going to come off it at the moment.
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Ah, yeah that’s often what I do myself. Sometimes we know what’s best for ourselves.
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Powerful poem!
I need to catch up on all your posts, and plan to soon. Glad you are sharing your thoughts & observations here again. Hope & wishing you are doing well, or as well as you can. 🙂
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Thank you, glad to see you are still apart of this blogging community! Thanks for reading, too. Hope things are well on your end, too.
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Thanks for liking my blog, “coming soon to websites near you” great poem, I feel your poem as I take 2 pills and probably will the rest of my life as my life would be shorter without them as I know I would kill myself if i didn’t take em!
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Thanks for reading! And congratulations on your book. I was going to post that, but got distracted somehow lol. Anyway, thanks for coming to check out my blog!
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